Sometimes you just have to talk

If your a women, over 65 but under 70 I think you might know what I mean.

Let me explain.....

           I'm married, we had children who are grown now with families of their own.  We also have lots of Grandchildren and Great Grandchildren.  That part is all good.  In fact it's very good.

          I just thought I would be in a different place now.  I know what you are thinking.  Big  high end home, nice furniture, expensive clothes and jewelry, you get the picture.  None of that is what I have nor do I want any of that.  I love my home.  It's been put together a room at a time.  I'm not kidding !  We even have a school bus hooked on one side.  That use to be our bedroom in the back (now it's a closet).  The front of the bus was my kitchen (now it's more or less a storage for things I don't have room for in my other kitchen).  The bathroom is in the  middle and it works quite well.

I do have a lot of books.  Some people would think I have too many, not me, of course, I would love to have a lot more.  I made the mistake a few years ago and gave away half of them.  About 500.  Yes, I do regret it very much.  I feel like I gave away half of my soul never to be found again.  You know how it is, I'll remember a particular book then realize I gave it away.  That awful feeling of lost you feel in your toes or I see one in the book store or some one's home and sigh, and say to myself, I use to own a book like that.  AWFUL !  But I have no one to blame but myself.  I  just didn't have the room and we were moving things around.  Shelves came down, windows went in there went the books.  I did give them to a thrift store so I keep telling myself I have made a lot of people very happy.

So I am pretty much okay with my book situation and my family.  I could  do more exercise.  I have 3 DVDs of Jane Fonda's.  What a cool lady.  I do like her a lot.  Years ago I even had her VHS tapes and I worked out with her a lot.  So I got a gift card for one of the Holidays and bought her latest  DVDs.  I really like the one as it has dancing in it.  Especially the Latin dance.  Wow !  Let me tell you, do that dance and you will feel young again.  Don''t look in the mirror while doing it as it will kill your good feeling as all you will see is an old women flopping around her living room.  Oh well, such is life.  That doesn't stop me from doing it.  I just avoid mirrors.

Okay, so that just about covers most of my life except........And this is a big except, my Jim.  Who really doesn't feel like my Jim any more.  I don't know who this man is that is in my home seeming to take over.  He is a big bully, arrogant, know it all, judgmental, non caring, stubborn, and disregards how I feel about anything if I don't agree with him.  I can't tell you how many times something is being discussed among the family and I give my opinion or add something.  I get nothing.  Not a response, a look, a nod of the head,  nothing.  He acts like I have peanuts for brains.  Like my opinion would not make a bit of difference at all.  There have been times when I have talked about something, maybe something I had just found out and was sharing.  He doesn't acknowledge anything I say at all.  Then the next thing I know he is telling it, even to me.  I look at him and say, " I told you that already."  He looks at me like what was I talking about.




                                                                                                                                                                         
Oh, I am not done.  In fact I have just gotten started.  Now we go to the animals.  We have 4 dogs.  Our one Son ended up giving us 3 dogs.  Two heading to the pound and one was his.  No pets where he moved.  So yes, we took them.  We have the room and dogs are fine.  The fourth dog is ours.  We got it on Craig's List.  All of our dogs are very sweet.  Our dog, Tasha is a mix, border collie and I don't know what else. A little chunky and very sweet.  Olivia a chihuahua, is about 14.  She's a blond or yellow.  Very sweet.  Bella is another Chihuahua that is black. Very vocal.  Then there is Eddie, Highway Eddie.  He is part Rottweiler, don't know if that is spelled right but you get my jist.  Stocky, solid built, needing attention a lot.  Always getting out of the yard.  But for some reason that is never on the list of things to do.  So I have to keep my screened in door shut as when he gets out in that south yard he can get under the fence and away he goes looking for Jim.  Usually ends up on the road in front ready to cause an accident.  It has just never been important to secure the fence.  I'm not one to demand (maybe that is my problem).  I don't like confrontation.  I do expect everyone especially Jim  to do the right thing without me having to be the Mother.  You know what I mean.  Who wants that job.  Let me add we have two dog doors, cat doors, animal doors what ever you want to call them.  Our dogs do go outside on their own.  That, I learned a long time ago.  After ruined rugs. Olivia has started going a foot out the door and doing her thing right there for everyone to see.
Great !



Okay, now we go to the cats.  We have 9, yes I said 9 cats.  Let me just say, we do live in the country.  Feel better ?  Good.  Edgar (we call him Sparky)  he showed up on our stairs early one morning.  Not kidding !  He, of course used our cat door and welcomed himself in.  Figured it looked like a good place and stayed.  Then our Granddaughter said she had a stray cat that was in her alley.  She had given it to a friend, which was not working out as the little girls just kept screaming at it.  So she, our Granddaughter wanted to know if we would like to have it.  Well, we had just recently lost 2 cats so we said sure.  She said it was a boy so we named him Angus.  Next thing we know Angus is quite chunky in the tummy and we have since named him Angelina.  She had 4 kitties.  We gave two, Booker and Anna, to our other son.  Well, we didn't get Angelina to the vet soon enough and before you knew it we had 5 more kitties.  WHAT ! So that is how we ended up with 9 Cats.  And yes, all 9 have been taken care of.  Here is the list of names....Sparky (Edgar), Angelina, Rosy, Thumper, Oreo, Domino, Angus, Faerie, and last but not least The Goddess.  She is the only one who has long hair and fluffy.  I do love all my kitties.  They are sweet, don't shed and seem to get along fine.  No problems here.


 Okay, I'm going to pause for now and return later.  I'm starting to feel better but it's going to take a lot of talking and I think some doing Because like I said I'm just getting started !!